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Bro,

The world does not owe you a living.

Even if it’s been mean to you before, and you think you’re due a break, it ain’t gonna happen out of some sort of magical instant karma. Especially since I think that you brought a lot of that strife on your own head. Trust me, I think you’ve pulled enough nonsense lately to get every bone in your body broken, and still be behind in “debt of grace”.

If someone that’s screwed you over in the past helps you out, say *thank you*, not *well I was due*. Especially if that person is your mother.

You’re not too good to work at McDonald’s.

You’re not too good to shovel shit, if it pays the bills.

Nobody is.

Honest work is something that’s a reward in itself. Running around, playing fast and loose, hanging around with folks that take the easy way is just going to get you that much closer to the street. Count how many of your “associates” that have been to jail this year. I know of four off of the top of my head. Some people can pull that kind of lifestyle off, for a little while, anyway. You can’t. You don’t have the skills. If you think that you do, ask yourself where your apartment is, ask yourself where *anything* of monetary value you once owned is.

Get a real job, even if it’s minimum wage. I know that $5 an hour is crap, but it will pay rent, feed you, and keep you out of jail. Moving to another town isn’t going to make it easier. If you can’t find a job in or around Fort Lauderdale / Miami / Boca, you sure as hell aren’t going to find one in Tampa. If the unemployment office is busy, you keep redialing. You sit and wait 8 hours in line, surrounded by people you don’t want to be around, if you have to. If you don’t have a real job, spend a *minimum* of 8 hours a day looking. You can get a crap job in telemarketing in 5 minutes. while making the money from that crap job, you’ll have a roof over your head until you find a job you want. It’s called work, because sometimes it’s not fun.

You’re in the situation you’re in because you screwed up. Nobody screwed you over. You made bad decisions. The landlord isn’t a jerk for expecting to get paid his rent on time, every time it’s due. That’s how economy works. It’s not your roommate’s fault that the rent didn’t get paid on time… his name’s not even on the lease. Take some responsibility for your screw ups.

You’re a big boy. 30 years old. Stop whining, and do something about your life. Stop blaming everyone else but the one person you know is responsible for you life. stop blaming anyone and move on.

I know that seeing other people on easy street seems unfair, but fair isn’t part of life. There are a billion people in this world that have is a lot worse, too. Your life is about you, not them.

Don’t you dare say I don’t understand what it’s like, because you know I do. The only person in this world that *owes* you a living is you. Everyone else that helps you is gravy. Appreciate it.

You’re a good guy, and if you put your mind to it, you can get your act together. The time for whining is over. In short, get off of your butt, and do what you know is right.

8:51 am
Waiting in the doctor’s office this morning… Get to ask about Aetna, back, cpap, skin sensitivity

Disco duck on muzak… Really

Too loud this morning, muzak at about 4 levels too high along with TV in lobby

Battery at 66%-charger not on?

Had to review new HIPAA privacy rules & sign them before treatment.
(PHI) I had to do the same at Eckerd’s yesterday, too

10:14 am
got 5 anti-inflammatory shots, worked fairly.
going to try a TENS unit,
have 4 scrip-
zanaflex 4mg(muscle spasms)
ultracet (pain)
neurontin 300 mg
celebrex 200 mg

Going to pharmacy now.

11:15 am
There are a gazillion jet-black grasshoppers with a yellow stripe running down the back outside. must be mating season! (add link when home)

I also picked up a micro-pet – yuk

Hey, they claim to have caught a chupacabra?

Hmm… looks like a cat to me.

Had a dream last night that I was required to get an enema as part of some sort of physical. The nurses were very matter-of-fact about it, though I really had (and have) no interest in getting one. I finally left when one of them said “It’s not bad at all…here, I’ll show you on another nurse first.” The physical was taking place at my old 1-bedroom apartment in pompano, but I left rather than kick out all the medical staff.

Maybe that’s my mind’s way of reminding me that I have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow morning at 9? I don’t imagine an enema is on the list of evaluative procedures.

geoblog is interesting… I have it semi-set up, now it’s just a matter of time before the implementation of autopinging weblogs.com is made to work.

dream notebook transcription, clean up

Had a very vivid dream that I was a kid of about 12 years old, and some guy was orchestrating some sort of day care or group project with more children at my old house on Longmeadow circle. The guy in charge was going to make us all go on some sort of week long trip into the woods, and had planned to give us drugs for each day… ones that we weren’t supposed to tell our parents about. (I have no idea where my parents were). I took it upon myself to assume that it was a bad idea to do so, and hid my pills in a Ziploc baggie under my pillow… while doing that, I glanced, saw Newton outside, and panicked. I dove through the sliding glass door, scooped him up, and went into the other room to complain to the authority figure about letting the cat out… he went on to yell at the group of kids there about it, but I wasn’t satisfied, because he was in the Florida room with the door wide open, and I thought that he was responsible for Newt almost being lost. My temper flared very high and I began yelling at the guy, slamming the flat of my hand against the counter…I was just getting into it when my brother knocked on my door and woke me up.

Argh. Eckerd drugs fubared again. I’m done with them.

2 hours of waiting, then they tell me it’s $40 rather than the expected $25 (which should have only been $10) I go to the doctor on Thursday, so I’ll get her to call the place up then, and iron it out.

I was going to rant about it, but I’ve not got the wind.

wow… interesting way to generate hits. 374 hits in 3 minutes.

had my entry hit with a spambot, so I’ve edited it and am posting the information here for future reference. I’m also reporting it to abuse at the ISP level. 5.5 megs of spam in 3 minutes warrants that.

As a result, I’ll screenning any anonymous comments now, at least for a bit.

All hits came from isp 24.95.249.208, between 11:30 and 11:33 EST.

OrgName: Road Runner
OrgID: RRMA
Address: 13241 Woodland Park Road
City: Herndon
StateProv: VA
PostalCode: 20171
Country: US

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CIDR: 24.92.160.0/19, 24.92.192.0/18, 24.93.0.0/16, 24.94.0.0/15
NetName: ROAD-RUNNER-3-A
NetHandle: NET-24-92-160-0-1
Parent: NET-24-0-0-0-0
NetType: Direct Allocation
NameServer: DNS1.RR.COM
NameServer: DNS2.RR.COM
NameServer: DNS3.RR.COM
NameServer: DNS4.RR.COM
Comment:
RegDate:
Updated: 2002-08-22

TechHandle: ZS30-ARIN
TechName: ServiceCo LLC
TechPhone: +1-703-345-3416
TechEmail: abuse@rr.com

OrgTechHandle: IPTEC-ARIN
OrgTechName: IP Tech
OrgTechPhone: +1-703-345-3416
OrgTechEmail: abuse@rr.com

OrgAbuseHandle: ABUSE10-ARIN
OrgAbuseName: Abuse
OrgAbusePhone: +1-703-345-3416
OrgAbuseEmail: abuse@rr.com

Interesting… my journal is in the lj top 40. (according to Google‘s page-ranking methods) found here. I don’t know if that’s good, bad, or neither.

a few neat things on lately.

Can’t seem to get to sleep… things weighing on my mind, both good and bad. ah well, I guess that’s what my books are for.. Escape, and a natural tranquilizer.

Positives, The There-crew, esp. DN. The Golden Egg trophy by the way is very pretty, and will look stunning on the mantle at the lighthouse.

misc quizzes

Evil Thought.

If I was a psycho serial killer, I’d drain the blood from my victims, put it in ketchup packets, and leave them in public-access condiment containers.

I wonder how long blood would remain fresh, vacuum sealed at room temperature?

Man, now I’m afraid to eat french fries.

I’m glad I’m not a psycho serial killer.

Tests found via ldy

Article about “Essential Difference”

The SQ test

Your SQ Score is 77. -high, range is 51-80
You have a very high ability for analyzing and exploring a system. On average women score about 24 and men score about 30. Three times as many people with Asperger Syndrome score in this range, compared to typical men, and almost no women score this high.

The EQ test

Your EQ score 53

(53-63) -just on the edge
You have an above average ability for understanding how people feel and responding appropriately. You know how to treat people with care and sensitivity. On Average, most women score about 47, and most men about 42.

Well, that’s something. Even If I’m very analytical, I can still catch a vibe.

According to the Baron-Cohen brain type chart, I have a balanced brain between male and female stylings, even though I got close to the edge of being a type E. So much for a manifestation of autism.

Folks still haven’t gotten the pod mind mapped yet, I guess.

End of the road... home once again. I am parking it here, though.

I wasn't the only one on the bicycle back roads this afternoon...a few old ladies, a young guy, a couple of peacocks and a squirrel all were along no the nature ride.

Back from the bike ride… I saw a few places that have for rent signs up… I catalogued them for future reference come mid-may. Summertime is the best time to seek a place to stay in Florida, and the worst time to move. There was absolutely no sign of rain, and precious few clouds for that matter. I need to remember to bring my ball cap to spare my nose a scalding. Hasn’t happened yet, but I know I’ll burn if I’m not protected.

an appealing 2-story on 10th street looks pretty likely. They have free utilities and it's very secluded, yet close to my brother, and transit.

Brother seems to be doing fairly well, and I’m happy for that.

The FMM gang are having an Unreal tournament tonight at 9pm… I have to set a note to remind me, otherwise I’ll be sitting out front reading or something.