woo.
Is it normal for a male to have fantasies of raising a child with a woman? another in my long list of reasons I think somebody slipped me a spare X chromosome. I think of my with her in a year, 5 years, 20 years… and whatever comes with it..I think that once we were together, a baby would follow quickly…for she’s not only a brilliant and loving woman, but I find her to be fantastically beautiful and erotic. I imagine in a short span there’d be a little girl with my blue eyes and her red hair & fair skin… I wonder what sort of parent I’d be, and what sort of partners my love and I would be like… we synch up a lot, and I feel we have pretty similar values, too. I wonder how we’d balance out discipline and the desire to have fun…
Is there such a thing as a ‘paternal instinct’? I think of the joy that would come from helping to create a life… to nurture it, assist in it growing, watching it blossom… going through the good times and bad. I imagine the pride in my love’s eyes as the munchkin takes first steps, says first words… reading with them at night, helping with homework, being there for them.
I also think about my love as we’d grow older together… maybe having grandchildren. (mind you, I’m picturing that 20-25 years from now… )
I don’t know… all I do know is that I love her more and more every day.