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7281 – Back to work… alas.

If you were a policeman, and all things otherwise are equal, would you want a Star or a Shield for a badge?


Frickin’ power-surges happening last night crapped out my chats. Sorry about that.


Jasmine…she smelled like red bull and stale cigarettes. She blew me a kiss when I left. Good times. Nice to have a moment of noir.


Visited mzkitten at her work again yesterday. She’s been struggling with a lot, but puts on a solid game face. I admire her strength.


Cripes… The Dibneys and now Blue Beetle. Who’s next, Ambush Bug? Somehow, I can’t see BB as the new Spectre.


I’ve seen Dr. Who episode 2, now, and I really, really don’t want the guy playing the current doctor to leave. Note to self, offer to fire off CDs to GrayPumpkin, christin, et al. Fun episode, self-contained again, though it sandwiches in right after the first one leaves off. (Nice addition of aliens, and unfortunately-placed over-sized fans. (also, The previews for episode 3 looks like fun, too.)

Good News for non-torrenting folks. Dr Who episodes are Due for release individually on May 16, 2005, along with first and third episodes, and in a boxed set in the autumn of 2005.


Kang is an awesome name to image search on. Look at what you get!

7279 – Monday

Something that seems to keep cropping up. When you apologize, please don’t modify it with “but”.

Like… “I’m sorry I set your head on fire, but I was cold.”

That just kills the whole thing.

You also need to tell the aggrieved party that (a) you recognize that what you did was wrong; (b) you feel bad about whatever wretched thing you did; and (c) you will genuinely do your best not to repeat said wretched behavior in the future.

Seriously, if your apology does not include all of these elements, it will not come across as sincere. It is not sufficient to simply say you’re sorry but neglect to change your behavior. Changing the harmful behavior that led to the need for the apology is the most crucial element here; if you exclude it, you may as well not issue the apology in the first place.


Moment of Lyric:

Twinkle little star… in Bulgarian. see link below

April Fool Making Fiends, Now with subtitles. (For those that don’t know Bulgarian)


Where To Find Great Free Photographs And Visuals For Your Own Online Articles


Broken people are everywhere. It’s like the castoffs pile of a windup toy factory. Some are missing a foot or a need a touch-up paint job, but most have damage in the the clockwork. I saw a sick man shaking a hedge angrily and waving a handkerchief-wrapped hand covered in blood. I saw three 17-20ish year old boys yelling obscenities and rude comments to everyone who walked by. On the bus, there was a man who smelled as if he chose to sauna out the whiskey in his system rather than ever bathe, his hair a single thick, matted dreadlock, caked with whatever it is that makes dreadlocks work. He was dressed in several layers of soiled, heavy clothing… possibly because that was all he had in the world.


1 year ago – 22 questions, DST, Ft. Laud Mellowed, 4-4-4

2 years ago – Met with Meter Made, don’t confuse courtesy with subservience, pics for the day, Speedy off CN, Sample McDougald house letter

3 years ago – walkies, dream, taking stuff poll, Moment of Waponi, Killian’s, bk veggie (the old one), long music ramble, production meeting at IMT

4 years ago – Slander-drama / resolution (Honestly, I think that part of the issue started from here.) I wonder how that “FBI Investigation” turned out.

7278 – Man, little twelve toes still rocks, and makes me misty.

The morning came with a minimum of fuss, more out of habit than anything else. More energy this morning… I was running on fumes yesterday. Today is going to be a walkabout and a mind-blanking workout.


I am really glad that I have so much bandwidth available on my website. People have been hitting the audio and video pages pretty hard the last few days.


Current Reality Settings – Better than yesterday, but I want to get back to 4-color, wacky, full.

Spectra-Analyzer (Monochrome / 4-Color / True-Color / Thermograph / X-Ray )
MPAA Rating (G / PG / R / NC-17)
Kill switch (Off / On / Wanton Murderous Rage)
Weirdness Tank (Empty / Low / Half / High / Full)
Laugh-O-Matic (Serious / Satirical / Witty / Wacky / Insane)
Cliche Blender (Pulse / Blend / Puree / Oh, Ugh!)
Global Soundtrack Volume (off, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11!)
Personal Soundtrack Volume (off, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11!)
Batteries (Empty / Low / Half / High / Full)


Well, the get-together yesterday was delayed, but maybe next weekend. constance1010 had to work, at the last minute. Hopefully I won’t be on call next go ’round, and can catch her and tarpo.

Sights and sounds from what I did instead –

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More Marker-code. TNT/YYM.

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Scribble-doodle – more from the TNT people from before?

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More Sticky-letter graffiti

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Little band in the riverwalk pavilion. the crowd was nigh-empty:
What the band was playing – 145k ogg


There’s some bad juju in the air this month. I wish I was more superstitious, so that I could do some sort of banishment ritual and feel that it works. Flies banging on a windowpane, promising something outside that’s probably unpleasant.


Bid on a replacement model for my poor dead camera on ebay.. it’s so old that I can safely bid about $50. I don’t really need a brand new bleeding-edge camera for snapshots.


Utilitarianism

90%

Justice (Fairness)

90%

Existentialism

75%

Hedonism

70%

Apathy

35%

Kantianism

25%

Divine Command

10%

Strong Egoism

5%

Nihilism

5%

What philosophy do you follow? (v1.03)
created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Utilitarianism.

Your life is guided by the principles of Utilitarianism: You seek the greatest good for the greatest number.

“The said truth is that it is the greatest happiness of the greatest number that is the measure of right and wrong.”
–Jeremy Bentham

“Whenever the general disposition of the people is such, that each individual regards those only of his interests which are selfish, and does not dwell on, or concern himself for, his share of the general interest, in such a state of things, good government is impossible.”
–John Stuart Mill

You scored as Justice (Fairness).

Your life is guided by the concept of Fair Justice: Everyone, yourself included, should be rewarded and punished according to the help or harm they cause.

“He who does not punish evil commands it to be done.”
–Leonardo da Vinci
– I truly agree with this sentiment, which is why my merciful side suffers.

“Though force can protect in emergency, only justice, fairness, consideration and cooperation can finally lead men to the dawn of eternal peace.”
–Dwight D. Eisenhower


I don’t want the most-remembered term of 2005 to be “feeding tube”.


People don’t give hips and collarbones enough credit in the sexiness department these days.


Moment of Lyric: (mp3)

What’s that sound
Comin’ from the dresser on a night as black as pitch?
What’s that sound
Comin’ from the bureau, do I dare turn on the switch?
Them bones, them bones, them dry bones
All bleached and deathly white
I’ve got skeletons in my closet and
They’re rattlin’ tonight

The cheat bone’s connected to deceit bones
And thereby connected to lies
I-love-yous said indiscriminately make the sockets for the eyes
The love bones knock against the hate bones
And fingers click in time
There won’t be sleep for the weary tonight
‘Cause all those bones are mine


I forgot to mention… on Friday, Dan gave me a copy of Kelly’s Heroes. on VHS. I don’t own a VCR anymore. I wonder where I can go to swap it out for a DVD version? It’s a great flick.


There’s a solid piece at Wired News about Buprenorphine, a treatment for heroin that kills withdrawal symptoms quickly, but without the abuse potential of methadone. Unfortunately, it hasn’t taken off as expected, in part because of some ill-conceived regulation:

After bupe had been on the market a year, the law was amended to permit methadone clinics to prescribe it, but only under the same rules used for methadone (one dose per visit), which erases one of bupe’s major advantages – that you don’t have to schlep to a clinic every day. Meanwhile, many methadone providers have remained openly skeptical of the new med, fearing that it will further stigmatize methadone, or siphon off their most stable patients. The government reimburses methadone programs for the number of patients they oversee, not for the specific services they provide, so the payment for a stable patient who takes a dose and goes to work subsidizes treatment for more fragile clients with multiple addictions, mental illness, housing and unemployment issues, and more.

The regulatory problems didn’t stop there. Influenced by tales of unscrupulous methadone clinics taking on huge case-loads for the reimbursement cash, Congress barred doctors from maintaining more than 30 bupe patients at a time. And in a monumental blunder, the law classified giant HMOs like Kaiser Permanente, as well as hospitals, as single providers, with the same 30-patient cap that Kolodny has in the solo practice he maintains on evenings and weekends. Four years later, the law remains unchanged. One clear sign of the law’s unintended consequences: The world-renowned Addiction Institute of New York (better recognized by its old name, Smithers) doesn’t mention bupe in its advertising because with a 30-patient limit, it fears it would have to turn people away.


In elementary school I remember the teacher telling me that the vowels were AEIOU and sometimes Y and W. But I can’t think of a single word where W is used as a vowel. Are there any?

Sure. Try “how,” which is phonetically equivalent to “hou,” as in house. Ou and ow are diphthongs–that is, two vowel sounds that kind of slide together when you say them. W and Y are often called semivowels because they go both ways, as it were, depending on the company they keep within the word. (Low morals are obviously a problem at every level of our society.) In cow, for instance, W is a vowel, but make the word coward and you can hear W working as a consonant. Similarly with Y become I in copy and copier.


I dig how Google and Yahoo are duking it out.

Last month’s launch of Google Maps was impressive, but not as cool as Yahoo’s placing of live traffic conditions on its map this month. Google’s webmail product, Gmail, caused a fuss by offering accounts capable of storing a gigabyte of mail, four times that of Yahoo Mail. No problem, said Yahoo last week, Yahoo mail users can have a gigabyte too. Google’s purchase of Blogger gave them a place at the blogger’s table, but it has done little with it. Yahoo’s blogging tool, Yahoo 360, launches this month, allegedly fully integrated with the rest of the content they produce.

Google has an image organizing application in Picasa, sure; but Yahoo just bought Flickr, perhaps the smartest and richest online application ever written. Yahoo has a rich site summary (RSS) aggregator, Google does not. Yahoo has a search engine for online movies, Google does not. Yahoo has quietly launched search.yahoo.com/cc, a search engine engineered to find and index Creative Commons material.


1 year ago – Hellboy, Le Gren, Marlin Maniac

2 years ago – Bro issues w/LL, sponsored links, Meredith out front

3 years ago – Walkies, baby sharks, programming, local hones go to 10-digit dialing, Reality settings, Wolf files, army men, schoolhouse rock

4 years ago SOP, enature, symbols, psa for my bio page, C++ DST bug

7277 – Bro in April, part 2

Bro called me about 10 minutes ago. His latest drama is the tale he told me of fall in off of the bus. The way he tells it, he ran to get on, the driver didn’t see him, and closed the doors in his leg, cutting it open and pushing him to the ground. He says that he’s banged up, and that by the time he’d gotten to the hospital “they couldn’t put stitches in, because it had already healed some”… which sounds like bologna to me. I asked if he had filed a report, and he told me that he was going to file a delayed police report on Monday, but he has spoken with a lawyer and BCT.

This makes me think that it’s a minor injury at best and that he’s trying to blow it out of proportion so he can look to make some easy money. I reminded him that all BCT buses have cameras now, so they should be able to get a video tape of what exactly happened.

His voice was screwed up, and he sounded disoriented. Odds are good that it was self-induced, and not from any tumble.

If I counted off how many times this kid has been in accidents and wanted to sue somebody, I’d have to move on to another person after using all of my own fingers, toes, ears and anything else that might poke out and be used to tally.

I wish that identification of a problem meant that you had a solution. Not always the case.

7276 – Saturday

Danny was embarrassed by my hat, he thought it looked old fogey-ish. So, I love it even more.


Hopefully getting together with tarpo and constance1010 for some Thai food this afternoon/evening. I’ll leave Newt at home, so Tarpo won’t have to worry about any fierceness-danger. Maybe Newt thinks Tarpo is short for Tarpon? A tasty fish. I’ll call after 1pm today to see what’s up.


Yesterday, the day went –

Rude awakening, lit fuse, got mad, walked it off, saw goat-milk eggs, got a woobie-hat, walked home, met Danny, got sushi for lunch, saw sin city, got soda & fritters (he got a pina colada) at Ugly tuna, went to Barnes & Noble (He bought 2 more discworld books – I’ve got him hooked on it, the watch in particular), went home, got re-annoyed with bro, discovered another broken netflix cd, and then settled in a bit to read lj, chatted with buddies online, got an Ice cream cravin’, and took a walk to handle it. returned home, chatted more, worked on building a system, went to bed, and cuddled with Newt.


Moment of Lyric: 3 DOORS DOWN: DUCK AND RUN

And I won’t duck and run
‘Cause I’m not built that way
When everything is gone there’s
Nothing there to fear
This world cannot bring me down
No, ’cause I am already here


1 year ago – CoH, squirrel, JG a blond/, man eating plants, thorax cake, free energy, reality settings

2 years ago – Iraq-o-meter, 100 greatest AFD hoaxes, train trip

3 years ago – office politics and people, modern major general, joe vs the volcano, boilerplate, bare necessities, text msg’ed, weather, reality gauge, newton the destroyer, black water mass

4 years ago – glowworms, school mascots, schwa, wedding / scotto job trivia, Murray Head, list trims

7275 – Quick thoughts.

Sin City did a great job of transferring the comic panels to the big screen.

My only complaint is that it’s a shame that the actors didn’t have better lines to deliver, because a lot of it came out very wooden to my ears. (Sometimes stuff reads a lot better than it sounds out loud.) They got all of the dialogue in there, but didn’t spend enough time making it sound natural. Hollow-sounding script aside, it was nicely assembled, and played out in the screen quite well. I have no need to see it a second time, but it’s neat to know it’s there. It might be interesting to view again to evaluate the scenes, but don’t make me listen.

Best of show was the use of Marv, and Alba is very easy on the eyes.

Scene by scene comparison

7274 – cool-down

Ok, I’m back and calmed again.

Here’s what it took. I steam-walked about a mile up to the local drugstore and that pretty much burned off the excess adreno-fuel bubbling in my system. Once I got there, I picked up some shampoo and deodorant.. walked around and saw a lovely giant bucket-hat. (not unlike the one square bear wears (see icon). Mine isn’t as rockin’ as his, being just khaki-colored, but it keeps the head shaded and free of sunburn. Maybe I’ll meet a foxy redhead in bunny slippers again.

Something that delighted me was a packet of caramel chocolate eggs (HUEVO DE CARAMELO!) “made with real goat’s milk!” There were stacks and stacks of them… 75% off. In a week, they’ll be 90% off, and I won’t be able to resist getting one for less than a dime. 6¢ to be exact. How often do you see a cent sign these days? Especially with just one digit in front?

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Goats and chocolate, together at last! just in time for after-easter discount candy sales!

Nay, I did not buy one, dear journal… my delight in the existence of such a thing was enough for me. Leche De Cabra! Also, the name “Pangburn’s” makes me laugh, too.

How would I work that into a Chupacabra story? chupalechedecabra? goat-milk-sucker?

Anyhow, I’m feeling much better. Good thing, too. Dan’ll be here in about a half hour, maybe sooner in weekday traffic.

You can get in my way again.

7273 – ok, enough’s enough.

While I was in the shower, bro came by and snagged the packet of change on my doorstep in case I didn’t hear his knock. Perhaps it’s best that I don’t see his face. I can’t let him ruin my whole weekend.

Going out with Danny today at about noontime.

Possibly a Movie? Maybe Sin City, maybe Gunner Palace.


April Fools’ Day – Origins, pranks, articles.


Comedian Mitch Hedberg was found dead in his New Jersey hotel room on 3/30. Obit I really liked his work.. one of the best comedians I’ve ever seen on stage.

No concrete evidence, but he’s got a history of heroin abuse, and died of a “heart attack”. Great. That’s news I needed to hear today. I’d like to take a baseball bat to his coffin right now. I know it’s a sickness, but hell.

My brother would rather live on the fucking streets, stealing half-smoked cigarette butts from ashtrays and getting stoned than straighten out. How powerful a hold does something have to have on a person to let it override everything else, including eating, being clean or having a place to live?

Son of a bitch, I’m pissed off now…. I can feel heat coming off of my body in waves and I’ve got adrenaline shakes.

I’m going for a walk to cool down.

Stay the fuck out of my way, if you know what’s good for you.

7273 – ok, enough's enough.

While I was in the shower, bro came by and snagged the packet of change on my doorstep in case I didn’t hear his knock. Perhaps it’s best that I don’t see his face. I can’t let him ruin my whole weekend.

Going out with Danny today at about noontime.

Possibly a Movie? Maybe Sin City, maybe Gunner Palace.


April Fools’ Day – Origins, pranks, articles.


Comedian Mitch Hedberg was found dead in his New Jersey hotel room on 3/30. Obit I really liked his work.. one of the best comedians I’ve ever seen on stage.

No concrete evidence, but he’s got a history of heroin abuse, and died of a “heart attack”. Great. That’s news I needed to hear today. I’d like to take a baseball bat to his coffin right now. I know it’s a sickness, but hell.

My brother would rather live on the fucking streets, stealing half-smoked cigarette butts from ashtrays and getting stoned than straighten out. How powerful a hold does something have to have on a person to let it override everything else, including eating, being clean or having a place to live?

Son of a bitch, I’m pissed off now…. I can feel heat coming off of my body in waves and I’ve got adrenaline shakes.

I’m going for a walk to cool down.

Stay the fuck out of my way, if you know what’s good for you.

7272 – Bro stuff, mostly.

Vaykay Day off to a poor start.

Did I sleep in? No, because my brother called and woke me up at 6:20 this morning, but hung up before I could talk to him. (he must’ve realized he was calling too early. He called back at about ten past seven, to give me his latest sob story about his bike going stolen and living on the street and how he needs money for a daily bus pass to get to work. I know that’s likely a pile of bs, because day labor stops reeling in at 6am.

I went to my change jar and set him aside the money in nickels and dimes, because I don’t currently have any folding cash on me… and I won’t give him anything more than a fiver at any rate. He picked up his food card here yesterday, and apparently he’s cashed that all out already, too… so I made him a few PB&Js to take with him on the road. It hurts that I can’t do anything to really help him, and I feel squeamish about giving him even bus fare’s worth of dinero, because I worry that he’s going to spend it on drugs.

[update: 7:30 – he called back and asked if I could write him a check for $20 to pay someone to “give him a ride around today”, and look for his bike. I told him that I was sorry, but I couldn’t do that. He said that he understood, but said that he figured he would ask. In a way, I’m glad he did, because it actually helped to strengthen my resolve about refusing him bigger funds.]

He says that he’ll be by inside of an hour… he was surprised when I told him I wasn’t going into work this morning… I think that he’d prefer to pick up the money and not face me. He mentioned that I could leave the money in the mailbox if I was heading out to the job.. that also means that he’ll have to come by sooner than later if he wants his story to hold water.

In other family news: Mom bailed on supper out last night, and it’s just as well. Her leg was bothering her, and I was beat from the day… we gabbed on the phone for about 20 minutes and that went well.

I gave GEO (big Kahuna’s Husband) another tutorial on the computer after work, and showed him how to scan, print and burn images to CD (and rewrite) he’s a swift guy, and grasps technology quickly for a guy in his mid-70s. His photography is amazing, too.


All new Making Fiends! (Special 4/1 edition!)


More spam-comments from

248.114.7.57
87.119.46.108
16.30.198.6

this time about diet, loans and Viagra, all in the same post (My birthday, 2003). did they figure out how to bypass the catchpa?


Random walkabout photo from lunchtime yesterday.

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More Sticky-letters. Kram? Mark Backwards? Same guy that did Buk-50?

Contemplating a new cammy-cam-cam. Vacation-time. Save Money, Or Spend it? Probably save it.. I need to get some bucks to Dave and to Kev.


American Social Hygiene Posters ca. 1910-1970


Moment of Lyric:

I saw you ‘cross the dance floor (dancin’)
I thought of birds and bees (reproductive system baby)
And when I tried to speak to ya (talk talk)
My tongue unraveled to my knees (flippety-flippety-flop)

I tried to say I love you (love you)
But it came out kind of wrong, girl (wrong girl)
It sounded like “Nunubididoo” (tongue tied)
Nuh mur nuh murh ni nong nurl


I was just offered a small donation from a guy to use my “combover” doodle (I come up pretty early in google searches for that hairstyle) on his letterhead if I’d put his name on it. Apparently he’s losing his hair. I said, sure! and promptly modded the doodle for him. I’ll donate the money to my charity fund. That’ll be my first piece of sold and commissioned art done on the palmtop.

I still prefer monkeysaw or Newt.


Christopher Eccleston (who did a fantastic job) the Doctor in the new Doctor Who tv show, now he’s quitting. Bah.

Eccleston, whose first appearance as the ninth Time Lord attracted around 10 million viewers, feared being typecast.

Talks are taking place to replace him with Casanova star David Tennant.

A second series of the new Doctor Who, which will again be written by Russell T Davies and produced by BBC Wales, has already been commissioned.


1 year ago – Ossuaries, CoH, LJ 4/1 gag, impression meme

2 years ago – If I were a, fuel cells, JKG, 20,000 leagues

3 years ago – reprint, life changes, teacher with 17 dogs, that’s my baby whale, critter poll, pikachu vs badger, doc visit, mario moonlighting

4 years ago – midget wrestler, glow worm, april fools, nice dreams, I don’t like AFD, Computer update, midget wrestler-scotto

7271 – End of my work week!

Tony’s Collections– I dig the Keyrings Man, that’s a lot of knickknacks.


Sick Call Excuse Generator.

mine is totally accurate – Tomorrow is Mental Health Day! SO Right! Long weekend coming up! Not even an excuse, but a long-planned weekend.


Doodles drawn on the bus, and a picture of Newt’s most grumpy face.

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Ape-O-Naut! See: Famous Monkeys Through History for more info.

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Man on the bus reading the paper and talking to nobody in particular. “We’re all ants! Those Fatcats in Washington don’t care about us!”

I don’t think I’ve ever used the term “fatcats” in writing before.. or said it before today. I like it. Say it with me, won’t you, journal? Fatcats. Fatcats. Fatcats.

http://scottobear.com/lj/archives/033105/newtsneer.jpg

Speaking of Fat Cats, this is Newt’s most withering gaze. Ok, he’s not really that fat.


Amazing how many people are seeding last night’s episode of lost (#19). It’s really the best time to grab it. over 7800 people seeding and more than 15,000 sharing pieces of it? No wonder it comes down the pipe so fast.


Moment of Lyric:

I miss your gentle voice
At lonely times like now
Saying it’ll be alright
I miss my friend
The one my heart and soul confided in
The one I felt the safest with
The one who knew just what to say
To make me laugh again
And let the light back in
I miss my friend


People at work are starting to forget that my cell phone isn’t for calling me on a whim. I have to answer it right away, because I’m the go-guy if the system breaks, or a tech has any issues. I don’t need to be called out of a shower to be asked about mundane work crap that can wait until office hours.


Best overheard phrase last night: “I bit me a vampire once. Tasted like corn.”


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