6717 – Last night's dream

It was very vivid in parts, others I don’t remember nearly as well.

I was in a car with Pam M., being driven (I thought) to GP & Katt’s place for gaming, like we did in the early 90’s. We were gabbing it up like old times, talking about an old episode of “Doctor, Doctor” on TV… the one with the insanely funny dancing doll. It turned out we were going to her place first (her old-old place, back when she was still living with her mother and Paul) to pick up some stuff she had forgotten for the get-together.

I assumed it was brownies or some such, but then she came out with western costumes… she handed me a white long-sleeved, collared shirt, dark pants, and soft, well-worn boots. In my dream-state, this all seemed perfectly normal, so I went into the restroom to put on the gear. It all fit and looked good, though I thought it was a little bland for a “costume”. I wish that I could remember what Pam was wearing, but if I knew at all, detail faded upon awakening. I don’t even remember if she looked good or not, just that her clothes fit, too. (They had been shipped to her, and she was concerned about tailoring.)

We took a walk around back and there was a series of rocks set in a circle, with a recliner placed directly in the middle. Pam walked over to it, sat down, and a black square of space opened beneath her, allowing her and the chair to vanish silently into the ground. She was gone in a blink, with the ground and chair returned as if they’re never moved. I walked over to the launch-site, and there was no sign of any disturbance at all. I felt myself shrug, and took a seat.

I was surrounded by a palpable black fog, and was pushed out into the light again almost as fast it had faded. No longer sitting, I was standing on a dirt path leading up to a ranch house, surrounded by rough hewn tree fencing and a number horses tied to posts. I explored the area a bit, and it was as real as the place I’d been before. I checked my pockets; my palmtop was still there, as was my money and keys. (For some reason I thought that they might not have made it… weird time-travel rules echo-thing, maybe.)

After exploring the grounds for a bit, I went inside, where Danny and GP were sitting at a table, sharing a beer. Danny was dressed up as a typical goofy cowboy, leather vest and chaps – big white ten-gallon hat and a string tie. I wondered idly if that was what he wore to Davie Junction when he takes his wife dancing, even though I know that it’s not. GP was in black, with a day’s growth of beard or so, looking like he was about to win “ranch hand most likely to start a bar fight” though he was in good spirits, smiling and gabbing with Dan. I ordered a beer, and my sweetie came over and sat in my lap – greeting me with a huge hug & kiss. She had the whole saloon girl thing going in red satin and ostrich feathers, and told me that she was scheduled to do a few torch songs and guitar work later on, which I found to be fantastic. Katt showed up shortly afterward, and was doing the ranch-hand/Audra Barkley thing. (Jeans and a collared shirt, not to mention a goofily small black cowboy hat.) She pulled up a chair and got some sort of hard liquor… whiskey, probably, considering the place. I asked Katt where Pam went off to, and was told “She’s off doing some solo stuff… she’ll be back soon.”

GP made a comment about having to get us all together at a tavern, even though outside it was just sort of a house. He then asked if I’d played darts yet, and I told him “Nope!”

He handed me a brass cigarette case with three darts inside, and told me to go throw ’em at the board – and that what score they hit would give back my characteristics. I was reluctant to release the prey I had nabbed on my lap, but she got up of her own accord, and walked me to the area behind a billiard table where I was to throw.

A lot of generic folks lined the edges of where I was to throw, like it was a major event. I tossed three times, and a cheer followed each strike to the board. I remember being happy that I didn’t hit the wire score dividers, as I often did on the rec-room board at home as a child.

I was given a choice – to play the on the side of the “syndicate” a group of wealthy families that run a cattle business, the “Sours” sort of where anti-heroes, bandits and fallen good guys end up because of booze or some other temptation, or “The Law”, which is self-explanatory… I was happy to see that each side had room to be good or evil in their own way. I arbitrarily went with “Sours”, just because it seemed the most fun at the moment. I was handed a sheet of paper, which had my name on it, and underneath, a short breakdown of my skills and mannerisms.

Apparently I was to play “Stinkin’ Stan” (Stinkin’? Bah.) An ex pearl diver from back east until I got some sort of ailment called “transfer disorder”, so I’m working at a syndicate ranch until I can afford some sort of local snake-oil cure. The “disorder” is some sort of poltergeist has followed me from the deeps… sometimes useful, but generally problematic as well. It’s sort of like 1d each of luck and unluck, I guess. I was also handy with a knife, and given a spring-loaded bowie knife, easily concealed – a la James West, I guess. Why would a pearl diver have a gadget? Who knows, but it was nifty.

Vague elements were other “dimension hops” where you could travel to other regions quickly, and there were strangely placed cameras everywhere, akin to The Prisoner. I don’t know if we were on some reality LARP TV show, were being recorded for our own viewing later, or if it was something more sinister afoot. I’m not sure if the extras were actual people or WestWorld automatons, for that matter. Apparently I was too poor to purchase a gun, but took a rifle off of a dead Indian. I only hoped that it doesn’t belong to someone that’d going to come looking for it.Site Meter

6715 Snzkx. Wake up, and get a move on, Scotto.

How do I feel?

“Queequeg no care what god made him shark…wedder Fejee god or Nantucket god; but de god what made shark must be one dam Ingin.”

– Herman Melville, Moby Dick
Chapter 66, “The Shark Massacre”

Well…maybe that’s a little vague. But that’s where I’m at.


That comment counter meme thing is broken. it only tallies the first 9999 comments, and I whooshed through that around the first year or so I was online. (I was a posting fiend back then, too.) I look forward to when the counter-gizmo is back on track as I’m actually pretty interested in seeing who my top 10 posters are. Right now, I could venture a guess about a few folks but not all.

My actual stats as of this post – Journal entries: 6,715 / Comments: Posted: 33,253 – Received: 32,336


I saw a big honkin’ lizard on my travels yesterday.

Howdy, Mr. Lizard!
(via the doodleboard)
That’s about to scale, maybe a little large. 🙂

Want to see?

6713 bitten by a ramble-bug

The cool thing about listening to the Adventures of Harry Lime is that you know they all take place before the movie.

Listening to a bit of Philip Marlowe, too. I dig the opening line – “Crime is a sucker’s road, and those who travel on it end up in the gutter, the prison or the grave!” (Speaking of which, my Brother moves into his own apartment on Tuesday.)

There’s something to be said about a man who tries to do the right thing from deeply felt loyalty and conviction, who is punished and betrayed for his efforts. What that thing is, I’m not sure.

By the way, *AVOID* the film version of The Long Goodbye with Elliot Gould. El Stinko, even as a parody. A lot of people like the movie, but I’m not one of ’em, dear journal.


Something I meant to mention a while back…but forgot to add.

How do you feel about having your food prepared by someone with a nasty black eye?

I went out to Blimpie’s with Danny a week or three ago, and the sandwich maker had a colossal shiner. That made me think twice before ordering, even though I knew that you couldn’t get “black eye” germs on the bread or anything. Something in my mind just railed against having my tasty lunch assembled by a guy that got socked, and hard. I referred to him as Luka, but Danny didn’t get the joke at the time, so I let it slide. He was a reasonably big guy, about 45 years old. Dan’s comments were more along the lines of “what’s a 45 year old guy doing as a sandwich maker?” than “I wonder what the story was behind who belted that guy?”

My reply to his question was that not everyone can get or hold jobs outside of the fast food sector… that led me to wonder about other people showing up to work with black eyes of their own. How much would that screw up a suit and tie video conference? A secretary taking dictation? A used car salesman? So many jobs need a face, and that’s taken for granted. I could get away with it… programming and hardware doesn’t care what you look like, but how would my coworkers react? I would think that it’d throw some judgment into the mix that might last for a while.

Heck, back into the work sector, what about a waitress? Would she get better tips out of sympathy, or would more people bail out?

I wonder how that’d affect how a person does their job? Self-image is a big part of how people interact with others, after all.

How long before “Yeah, but you should see the other guy…” got old?

Back when I was at IMT, I would’ve taken delight in seeing Wally with an eye-bruise.


Man, I’m so glad that I live in this day and age… I just have to shower daily. I get a feeling of residue if I wait more than 24 hours or so between washing up.


I liked Splitter’s old Legion name, “Arms-fall-off Boy”, more. doesn’t exactly flow off of the tongue, but it paints a picture. He’s among my favorite Super-losers, like Matter-Eater Lad, Infectious Lass and Bouncing Boy.


Upsides of being on call all weekend – In the A/C rather than Satan’s sock hamper, played with Newtie, got some good programming in, and caught up with my reading. Friday, after being outside for just an hour, I was a complete sweat-factory. Bleh.


Of the world’s 100 largest economic entities, 51 are now corporations and 49 are countries.

I would not have thought France was #4, or that it (or Italy, for that matter) would be higher than China.


There a lot of people in the blogiverse (blogosphere? whatever.) that have some form of dependent personality disorder, in my opinion. Some sort of unhealthy need for attention above and beyond what should be required. I’ve seen both sides of that sort of problem in real life (fortunately, not for quite a long time) , and it never ends well.

I’ve tripped over many who have fabricated a life threatening illness, a lost pregnancy or some other form of heartbreaking drama just to get some sort of feedback. I pity them, and am disgusted by how they steal energy from kind people.

I feel even more for folks that extended a little humanity to the fabricators. Nobody should be punished in that way for having an open heart. I’d hate to see those people hardened by falsehood and then unavailable to someone who actually *needs* extra sympathy and care.

Stuff like that makes it tough to be existential.

There’s a quote that I once heard a while back, probably Rob Wilson’s.

“The philosopher Carlin’s three major types of public nuisances — the stupid, the crazy and those just plain full of shit — have changed proportions in my mind as I grow older. I used to attribute almost everything awful to stupidity and looniness, but now I more and more suspect the major problem is that so many people are full of shit.”


I like my little purple turtle-themed post it notes. Very Handy, and just hippie enough to get a smile out of people I leave ’em for. They’re almost gone, and I got them as a gift. Not sure where I can go to get more of ’em.


How to Make a…Meme

6711 Astronauts, Hound Dogs, doodles and my first $0.21

Sammy was the first to click through on of the paying links for me yesterday, and it was worth $0.21 (I can’t click through for myself, because it violates the TOS.)

I’m hosted at rydia now… http://scottobear.com.users.rydia.net/, until scottobear.com slides over to the new host.

To celebrate, I added a Doodle-board message thingie.

currently at – http://scottobear.com.users.rydia.net/picture.cgi, though it’ll probably be on the toybox page once I configure it the way I like it. Sam did a pretty cool drawing already, even while I was just configuring the thing.


Cool pic of a flying hound!

6709 – 12 hours later, I’m still full.

For a vegetarian, I have some strong predatory instincts. I got a *humungous* burrito for din-din, and rather than my usual autopsy, slicing through the front, and picking choice bits out of the cavity, I did a two-handed lift and chomp, ripping flour tortilla-sinew and loosing an arterial rivulet of salsa down the side of the poor burrito’s carcass. Rest assured, it did not suffer long. Soon all that remained were assorted tortilla chips, like the rib cage and gnawed bone shards of a once proud, though tubular-shaped gazelle. My belly filled quickly, and after the feast, Newton and I rested on the far side of the apartment, our savanna clear of any intruders.

We slept well.


Sniffing around Shambhala: The Sacred Path of the Warrior, by Chogyam Trungpa . Here’s a quote from chapter one:

“Other legends say that the kingdom of Shambhala disappeared from the earth many centuries ago. At a certain point, the entire society had become enlightened, and the kingdom vanished into another more celestial realm. According to these stories, the Rigden kings of Shambhala continue to watch over human affairs, and will one day return to earth to save humanity from destruction. many Tibetans believe that the great Tibetan warrior king Gesar of Ling was inspired and guided by the Rigdens and the Shambhala wisdom. This reflects the belief in the celestial existence of the kingdom. Gesar is thought not to have travelled to Shambhala, so his link with the kingdom is a spiritual one. He lived in approximately the 11th century and ruled the provincial kingdom of Ling, which is located in the province of Kham, East Tibet. Following Gesar’s reign, stories about his accomplishments as a warrior and ruler sprang up throughout Tibet, eventually becoming the greatest epic of Tibetan literature. Some legends say that Gesar will reappear from Shambhala, leading an army to conquer the forces of darkness in the world.” (pp 26-27)


I’d dig getting a electric lawn chair boat to tool around the canals around here. I wonder how sturdy it is?

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6709 – 12 hours later, I'm still full.

For a vegetarian, I have some strong predatory instincts. I got a *humungous* burrito for din-din, and rather than my usual autopsy, slicing through the front, and picking choice bits out of the cavity, I did a two-handed lift and chomp, ripping flour tortilla-sinew and loosing an arterial rivulet of salsa down the side of the poor burrito’s carcass. Rest assured, it did not suffer long. Soon all that remained were assorted tortilla chips, like the rib cage and gnawed bone shards of a once proud, though tubular-shaped gazelle. My belly filled quickly, and after the feast, Newton and I rested on the far side of the apartment, our savanna clear of any intruders.

We slept well.


Sniffing around Shambhala: The Sacred Path of the Warrior, by Chogyam Trungpa . Here’s a quote from chapter one:

“Other legends say that the kingdom of Shambhala disappeared from the earth many centuries ago. At a certain point, the entire society had become enlightened, and the kingdom vanished into another more celestial realm. According to these stories, the Rigden kings of Shambhala continue to watch over human affairs, and will one day return to earth to save humanity from destruction. many Tibetans believe that the great Tibetan warrior king Gesar of Ling was inspired and guided by the Rigdens and the Shambhala wisdom. This reflects the belief in the celestial existence of the kingdom. Gesar is thought not to have travelled to Shambhala, so his link with the kingdom is a spiritual one. He lived in approximately the 11th century and ruled the provincial kingdom of Ling, which is located in the province of Kham, East Tibet. Following Gesar’s reign, stories about his accomplishments as a warrior and ruler sprang up throughout Tibet, eventually becoming the greatest epic of Tibetan literature. Some legends say that Gesar will reappear from Shambhala, leading an army to conquer the forces of darkness in the world.” (pp 26-27)


I’d dig getting a electric lawn chair boat to tool around the canals around here. I wonder how sturdy it is?

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6708 Settled on a new digital home, now I just need a physical one.

Mind is scattered all over the place today, and I find myself wishing I’d had more time this morning for a hearty breakfast. (not to mention something in the cupboard that resembled a hearty breakfast…. everything is pretty much dinner-oriented until I visit the grocery again.)


Yikes.. Electricity this month was $105, compared to last month’s $73. quite a leap… With the way I’ve been cranking the A/C these days, I wonder if I’ll crack $120 next month.


Well, I started the ball rolling for my new host… I went with Rydia.net/ for a few reasons.

  • They got back to me via email *fast*. That counts for a lot in my book. I want people that are responsive.
  • Downtime log seemed reasonable (especially compared to my last host, which had a multi-day crisis earlier this year.)
  • The price is right – $10 a month for all the features I want, and more bandwidth than I foresee needing, even if I stream audio and video 24/7 for newtcam. I like the idea of doing subdomains easily, too.. now I can have newtcam.scottobear.com, or whatever.

Also tempting was NearlyFreeSpeech.net. It’s $1/GB for bandwidth (actually 1¢ per 100th of a GB), and 1¢/MB/month for disk space. You simply send them a deposit (as little as $5) and when you’ve used that specific amount of bandwidth or disk space, they take out a penny. Thanks for the advice, Jordon! If I wasn’t such a data storage piggie, that would’ve gotten my vote.

Speaking of hosting, all sorts of nifty goodies at DNSstuff.com


2 Piccies from yesterday’s walk home

6707 – why a bear?

Because I like:

nuts
berries
honey
picnic baskets
walking in the woods (and I’ve pooped there)
splashing in rivers
sleeping late (especially in the winter inside my cave, preferably curled up with my mate)

And because:

I can appear menacing
I’m big and fuzzy
I don’t like forest fires
I like helping people (not just small blue mice) esp. by sharing knowledge
I’m generally very passive unless someone messes with my loved ones or habitat
I’ll *maul* you if you mess with my loved ones or habitat
I like to hug
I’d make for a cute stuffed animal
I have a good sense of smell
I’m very curious / nosy

6706 Snritzleblrfld.


Reemco’s CDC Ebola Virus Outbreak Action Playset (I know a certain someone who would *love* this. Maybe I’ll make one as a trinket of happiness for her.)


Thunderstorm advisories since last Friday, and I’ve not seen so much as a fat drop.


For the Record, once again…Mxyzptlk is pronounced “Mix-Yez-pittle-ick“. Not “Mixel-plik”. Criminy.


Wow, thanks for the all hosting info emails, folks. I think I’ve got who I want worked out, but I’ll investigate the rest as I go, just in case. I’m amazed at how much space is available for storage on some plans. I figure that my link-fees will cover any plan I might take, and CoH will soak up the rest.


Newt Pics du jour

6705 – Need a new host

My Site hosting service of over 6 years is calling it quits. I was hosted for *very* cheaply, and had solid access to the server.

I’ve got a month to relocate to a new host, and would *really* like to hear about any sites that can offer some basics for a reasonable price.

If you’ve got a site host you love, or know of a good deal, please let me know by posting in the comments here or emailing me directly at scottobear@livejournal.com

All I really need is the basics, support for MySQL, php, and root access to my directories. I don’t have a huge bandwidth issue.

Thanks in advance, dear journal-readers!