Me and Newtie

azrael / newtiepapa smurf / me

Hmm…my brother is coming by tomorrow to help out around the house. Taking my laundry and bringing some supplies. I found that he had more troubles than I knew on the Island when he was there… I’m glad those times are mostly behind him. I’m going to help him out with rent until his IRS check comes in later this week. I drew myself up fairly tight with the phone and power bills, cab rides and meds…It’s just as well I’m staying in this week.

I’m feeling a little mopey today, but that’ll pass. I think it’s from poor sleep, and being perhaps over-anxious about the meds, and the situation in general. I’m fortunate to have a few beacons to help me on my way. 🙂 Newtie is being very good about snuggling and purring. My back’s doing pretty well at the moment, and I’m curled up comfortably.

Something that just made me laugh… a guy’s name… “Dick Hyman“… master of jazz piano. I’m so juvenile, sometimes.

Yes, *DOMESday*.

Expert Judgement on Markers to Deter Inadvertent Human Intrusion into the Waste Isolation Pilot Plant

The Brain Trust at Sandia National Labs is attempting to design an entire landscape around the nuclear waste dump of the great Southwest – one that will say “go away” to humans for the next 10,000 years, regardless of changes in climate or culture. Among the more descriptive proposals are: Landscape of Thorns, Menacing Earthworks, and Forbidding Blocks. Artists’ concept sketches can be found near the middle of the document.The more I read this, the more I got visions of Mordor, the land of Scorch (from Wizards), the ancient complex of the Great Ones under Antarctica from Lovecraft’s The Mountains of Madness, and strangely enough, the rock formations from the ’80s movie Dune. Creeeepy.

Ancient Domesday Book Outlives Electronic Version

In 1086AD, somebody thought it would be a good idea to write down all kinds of stuff about the King in a book. That document has endured for nearly a thousand years and is of great interest to historians. In 1986, somebody thought it would be a good idea to make a modern-day equivelent, preserved in the latest, indestructable technology, for the next millenium’s historians. That document lasted about 15 years, and is now almost completely unreadable.

Contrast our ability to preserve and disseminate our culture to the kind of legacy we’re leaving for the next 10,000 years. Remember how the futuristic Legion of Superheroes always says that few records survived from our time? And you thought it was just so that DC didn’t have to give away the endings…

Went to the doctor, and he gave orders for me to stay in bed until I next see him — in a week. He wrote me a note for work, and three scrips for pain and anti-inflammatory.

for those following in the meds department, I’m now on oxycontin(20mg tabs) (not one I’m fond of… its addictive, and I don’t like putting stuff like that in my body.), supplemented with oxycodone,(325 mg tabs) (related and also habit forming) and naproxen (500 mg, maximum dosage) as the anti-inflam.

Variants on Percoset, which has been prescribed to me in the past… fortunately, I had no addictive cravings for it.

Some interesting stats on abuse.

I’m supplementing those meds with meditation, nag champa, soft lighting, thoughts of my sweetheart, Newtie-purrs, and Mr Chan’s Chinatown Almond Cookies.

My current upset is my awe at a doctor that schedules folks for a 1pm appointment, and I don’t get to see him until 2:15. That, and apparently Foundation Health is a horrid insurance company…that’s why I didn’t get better care at the ER. Looking into a better group soon. [update] It looks like Blue Cross / Blue Shield is the way for me to go, same price monthly, but a $500 deductable.

awwww! Llamas for sale!

Here’s the funniest thing I’ve read all week, a beautiful, savage skewering of a journalist whose laziness and presumption are a wonder to behold.

Watching Adult Swim and thinking of my sweetie…l’m in a very placid state… nearly floaty. Nag Champa burns while Newt purrs in my lap. I think my mind is about 5 feet to the left of my body. I have the urge to drink something with rum in it, and maybe a paper umbrella.

The trees hide the mountain,
The mountain hides the temple.
Vines’ shade is deep;
Cloud shadows, ragged.
Afar the bell sends off the falling sun.
Weary birds wing homeward
Cold light is sodden
With a smear of mist
I ask the rude monk
Where he wanders ‘neath
The moon morning and evening,
Early and late.
“I come with my lute here
strolling in search of a poem.”

– Hsien-Yu Pi-Jen

Ugh, my spine. Going to the doc tomorrow again to get this ironed out. The weather is shifted a day late… I could use some rain today, not tomorrow, to rest to.

*though of while doing obe meditation, mild rewrite*

On a scrap of typewritten paper –

until the host accepts them completely. Once established they grant the host heightened sensations, but at the cost of inhuman urges. These urges are often more strange than dangerous, but one wonders whether an untrained mind can distinguist between its own thoughts and those slipped through the back door of consciousness. Perhaps they are entirely benign, as the hosts claim, or perhaps the belief that they are benign is merely implanted by the parasites. It is not inconceiveable that they actually learn the mental patterns of their hosts and then devour their minds (and brains), mimicking the now-dead hosts and aquiring complete control of the bodies. A thorough autopsy of a host is obviously necessary, as are neurophysiological experiments on living hosts, but they are extremely secretive about their nature and protective of their dead. Cremation is universal among them.

So far, they have shown no coherent political activity, though perhaps their activities are simply too subtle for us to follow. The only thing that can be called a “policy” is that of paranoid secretiveness, which is understandable even if the beings are benign. Indeed, without projecting astrally, I would never have realized the existance of the Betellians, let alone determining details as to their habits and those of their human hosts.

This paranoid need to protect their identity is what makes me fear for my life.

Argh… going to lay down in a few…while I’m doing the Oso back-rest, you might want to check out this….

Enron actually built a fake trading room on the sixth floor of their Houston HQ. A slick Hollywood production with 36 inch flat panel monitors and faked video conferenced rooms.

According to former Enron employees, on the sixth floor of the company’s downtown headquarters was a set, designed to trick analysts into believing business was booming.

“It was an elaborate Hollywood production that we went through every year when the analysts were going to be there to be impress them to make our stock go up,” former employee Carol Elkin said.”

“Elkin said that it was all an act, and that no trades were actually made there. The people on the phones were talking to each other.”


There is a lesson to be learned here for writing conspiracy fiction. The things that are possible with money are more numerous and versatile than you would imagine. Just think, the 7th richest company in the US actually built a Big Store room in their corporate HQ, staffed with legit employees and routinely bamboozled authorities, analysts, reporters and investors with a virtual dog and simulated pony show.

“They would ask us to go alternately, in like hour shifts down to the sixth floor,” Elkin said. “And sit and pretend that we lived and worked there.”


Caught up in the dream, employees voluntarily, even enthusiastically participated in the deception. It was just good business. Sort of like a live-action commercial.

When I wrote about a month ago (I’ll redirect a link later) that no one knew what the heck Enron actually did, this is what I was talking about. Yes, they traded in commodities and futures. Duh. What no one could figure out was how Enron could make so much profit from doing it when everyone else quickly discovered that brokering a trade of vapor for BS results in a percentage of nothing. Gee, maybe we just weren’t doing it right. I guess that’s where the spiffy Enron philosophy and corporate culture and leading edge thinking outside of the box paradigm shifting came in.

I was beginning to suspect that I was getting a bit grandiose with my musings about the Kilroy Org. Now I realize I was thinking small.

Newt went to the vet! checked out with flying colors!

newt at the vet
[update – 3/2/03] http://www.printroom.com/ViewAlbumPhoto.asp?userid=scottobear&album_id=57101&image_id=6 (printroom direct links now dead)

more piccies here

I’m glad Newtie’s doing well… I’m having a mildly tough day. I think I’ll spoil myself, get some good delivery food, and slack some, work on writing some fiction, and tweaking that code… take things at my own pace. Minor walkies earlier. My Yahoo and ICQ have been funkier than george clinton’s socks after a 25 mile hike, lately. people appear off and on, including myself. weird.

Taking the Newtsicle to the vet tomorrow morn… I hope he gets a clean bill of health…I imagine he will. 🙂 Aside from that, my only real duty is laundry.

Online Company-Flamers: Beware

First a woman got fired because of something she said on her web site. Now people are getting sued for posting negative opinions of companies on message boards. What ever happened to free speech?

I’ve had issues with the current “money = justice” legal system since long before the O.J. thing. The whole concept of bogging people down under huge legal fees until they concede makes me think of schoolyard bullies wrestling smaller opponents to the ground and making them eat dirt until they say “uncle”. I also have serious, serious problems with cases where the defendant was not notified they were being sued, so they never showed up in court, and the plaintiff wins by default. It’s all rather Orwellian.

If there’s an issue in the 21st century that’s going to provoke people to start throwing tea into the harbor, this is it. Taxation without representation is nothing compared to litigation without representation.

Heaven help you if you make a comment critical of the media. Considering that a mere six companies (AOL/Time/Warner, Viacom, Newscorp, General Electric, Gannett and Tribune/Times Mirror ) control every major media outlet in the free world, and all of them would suffer major damage to their power base if a serious threat such as trust-busting a la Microsoft (for all the effect that had), they’re all going to band together to insure their power base, even while competing for your incredible shrinking attention span.

What I really want to know is, when did I start becoming a paranoid crackpot? when did this stuff start to really, really scare me and make me want to start lining my ballcap with tin foil? Some of this freaky weird fringe stuff is actually starting to make sense to me. I’m starting to be able to see the Fnords.

Ravage the land as never before.. total destruction from mountain to shore! – Gargamel

ugh… the program I’m working on is evil.

Ugly, craven, mutant code that shuns the light of day, spooks dogs and horses, and makes small children cry out in the dead of a moonless night. Villagers fork the evil eye at the code when they walk down the street, and some day the townsfolk will rally with torches and pitchforks and confront the code in its desolate lair, and drive it from the land of God-fearing folk forever.

But I’ll defeat it. pesky differences between .NET and VBA. bah, humbug.

Baby Llama! – Awwww…

Animal planet rocks… I love watching the tube with my sweetie in the morning.

Newtcam is on
wanna see?

Welcome to my wall scrawls.