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got up early this morning to walkies, but I’m not quite up to it yet. made it to the gas station and back, but the beach was too much effort for me today, in the tail end of my sick-yuck.

I hope my sweetie’s feeling better… the poor girl’s had to deal with one pesky trouble after another and certainly deserves the weekend to relax and recuperate.

I really want a digicam. That wacky mp3 player one looks like a nice fun gizmo, and cheap too. a nice thing to take with me on outings… there wasn’t anything that called out to me today to take a snapshot of, but I’m sure taking pictures of the airport, or sunrise on the beach would be fun.

Payday. (Last one before the end of the month) That’s something to be happy about… my budgeting is working nicely, building a comfortable little nest egg. when I first started my LJ, I was in financial straits… paying the bills for three grownups as well as myself. Thankfully, they’ve all recovered from the income troubles they were having, and I no longer have to squeak by paycheck to paycheck. I know so many people now that are taking care of adult dependants… Kevin (my boss) with his sisters, nephews and brother in law seems to have it the worst. He’s 33 years old, and is tending to the needs of four adults and three children. I wonder how he manages to keep himself fed, clothed and as stress-free as he does. I know of other folks, even younger, tending to the needs of parents or siblings too… I suppose there’s one caregiver and at least one care-needer in every family. (Poor Kev just is taking up six other folks’ slack)

I found myself thinking of walking with my love, hand in hand…as I’m frequently wont to do…she travels with me in my heart everywhere. thought about swinging arms, and laughing… always makes me walk farther than if I were alone.

Dream last night, fragment.

I was back, living at home, and my folks were together… I must’ve been about 14, I guess. It was late, and I was up for some reason, and I saw some movement out of the corner of my eye… I looked to investigate, and saw a tripwire made out to dental floss… I followed the string to a bomb… a ridiculously large blasting cap attached to a 2 or 3 lb bit of c4… crazy amounts of explosive…I think that’s enough to level a city block or something. My dad’s signature was on the clay…I looked up and saw him high-tailing it from the room. My mom was sleeping in the other room, unaware of the whole situation… I woke up my brother, and her… we left the house and it collapsed shortly thereafter.. weird booby traps were all over the neighborhood, pits filled with spikes and trees hiding spring-loaded scything blades…. I recall escaping into the jungle, but I don’t know where my mom and brother went… it didn’t occur to me to note them missing at the time.

Ended up at the beach, my beach, not the one by the old house.

That’s all I remember.

Moody.

Grumbly.

I’ve been missing out on gabbing with my sweetie today, and even if she was available, I’ve been bombarded with last minute fixit code, and would have had trouble chatting much anyhoo.

Bah.

Tomorrow’s my brother’s birthday… he’ll be 29. sakes. is that possible? I need to get him a nice treat to go with his cash. (he can use the cash more than a big prezzie)

I want to just fold my arms like a genie, and blink… make all of life’s little bugaboos go away. sadly, pods only possess low grade mind-reading powers… I’ll have to resort to love and charm to make folks feel good, instead. Including myself.

I miss you, Dad.

Just got hit with a wave of sadness, at the grocery store. They were playing Cat’s in the Cradle by Harry Chapin, and it was all I could do not to bust out crying like a baby. I really haven’t thought much about my father being gone lately, but I was sort of blindsided by the tune and got caught up in a very sad state…not even over blowing off getting to see him, but because I won’t be able to. I can’t just pick up the phone and call him up to say hi. He really doesn’t exist anyplace now except in my heart and in scattered form over the Atlantic Ocean.

Found a cache of stuff of my family’s… I though this was lost! I’ll be scanning them in from work tomorrow, if I do go in.

Old Letters… hard for me to read… but I’m a little groggy, and don’t want to wreck them. they’re delicate. Browned, and written in pencil. When I scan them in, I’ll post them.

It’s been exactly one year today since I’ve seen a shark in Florida waters. (Last time I went surfing with my brother, too.)

A lot has happened in the last year…

I’ve met a wonderful girl, and have been seeing her steadily for nearly a year. (Folks who read my journal know this pretty well by now.)

It’s getting harder to see my brother, regularly, now that he works Sundays. (He doesn’t seem to want to get together often, either… guilty for my treating him all the time. Heck, I’m happy to share a popsicle in the park with him, as long as we can get together.)

My mom’s called to let me know she’s back from her trip to Brazil (She’s been there since I moved to this apartment…a whole season.) I have to ring her back with my new address, and a time for she, Derek and myself to get together for lunch.

I’m feeling a need to take tomorrow off from work. I wanted to skip Friday, but was needed too much. If I can pull it off, I will.

Back from my movie-time with brother… I was treated this time around πŸ™‚ We saw kiss of the dragon…a fine chop-socky jet li movie.

Our time together was short today, and we didn’t get much talking in… but we had a good day, I have a bus adventure written up on my laptop, which I will synch into my journal the next time I bring lappie online.

Bonus- big brain is working quite well, since I pulled his extra ram… sadly, he only has 128 meg in there now… I look forward to bringing him up to 2 gig. (I’m a ram piggy… I admit it.)

Anyhoo, I’m going to make a little bite to eat, and shower… then gather all washable laundry stuff. I don’t want to do it, but I must. (I’m hoping my sweetie will stroll by, and distract me a bit… I’m thinking about her. πŸ™‚ )

Note to self – Get Newton more magic middles! we have 4 left!

Ok, procrastinate until 5, then off tho the ‘mat, until 7…hopefully, to see my sweetpea thenish. πŸ™‚

posted on lappie, at the library.

8/12/2001 11:46:08 AM

Got to the bus in record time. Just got to the library, made it with nearly an hour to spare. Interesting crowd gathers at la bibliotecha before opening at noon… about ten people, (not counting myself) lurking in these parts. Here I sit, at the front door of the library, Indian-style, an impending fight looking like its about to break out, a big guy (black) just went over to another big guy (white) and said “Listen, I don’t want to have to deal with you today… I’m warning you now. In reply, the other fellow said “oh come on.” But the whole exchange wasn’t jovial at all.

Whoops, there’s Derek. We’re going to see Kiss of the Dragon. see you kids later.

appended later, from laptop.

Morning… I woke up about 2 hours ago… the sleep was a dark, thick, and solid one. I don’t remember my dreams, but I was jarred out of my slumber by a telemarketing call…

I have but one chore to do today, but I won’t do it until late tonight, or before work tomorrow… accursed laundry. I can’t budget those 2 hours in anytime sooner. This morning, I’m expecting a call shortly from my brother, to find out what we’ll be doing for midday today…I’m expecting lunch, a few hours of goofing around, and some nice conversation. The usual outing with bro. Heard from him, and I’m taking the bus down to him… we’ll catch a movie. πŸ™‚

Meanwhile, I’m watching Samurai Jack… not bad, thus far, although he looks oddly like the powerpuff girl’s professor.

Hopefully, I’ll see my sweetheart before I launch for the day.. if not, I trust that we’ll reconnect after I return. Heading out now…My thoughts, heart and love goes to her, as always. I’ll see my darling when I return.

Slept in..

Derek had a job interview come up, so we didn’t get together today… instead, after seeing my sweetie off for the day (the dear has the mixed blessing of going to a 4 year old ‘s birthday party after a night of drunken debauchery with me…she loves the tot to pieces, but the time schedule could be better.) I dove back into bead, and reabsorbed the missing few hours of sleep I bypassed last night/this morning. Spent a good part of the time there not sleeping, but just resting… stroking newt, and trying to figure out what I want to do for my latest writing project. My brain’s been teetering back to days of when I was playing champions lately… so I think it’ll lean to something like ‘unbreakable’.. extraordinary person in an unusual situation.

I *still* have to mail out goodies to folks. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, in that respect. It’s been weeks, now… I will send the stuff out.. my window of opportunity is a small one each week to get to the post office while they’re open… I have Saturday and that’s it. I think what I’ll have to do is find some day to get up early and go to the PO before work, as I can’t seem to get things shipped out on the weekend effectively. Worst comes to worst, it’ll get sent out Saturday, with my horrible tardiness.

I think I’ll keep putting up my LJ cut posts of old characters, just for personal storage… I never really had them all in one place before.

my day in a nutshell – (help, help, I’m in a nutshell!)

Wowee-zowiee.

It was hotter than the devil’s armpit today, let me tell you.

I got together with Derek earlier than I’d anticipated, and that’s a good thing. I hooked up with him at the mall of the dead at about noon-ish, were we proceeded to grab some yummy veggies subs at the subway in the food court… the mall of the dead offers a small, if tasty variety of yummy foodles, takeout chines, Italian, hot dogs/beer, and subway. He’s recently broken up with his girlfriend, but I think it’s a good thing all around… for selfish reasons – now I get to see more of him, as well as the fact that she wasn’t a healthy person to have a relationship with. I hope that he meets a nice girl soon, and that she treats him like the prince he is. (He really is a sweet guy. Once I get him hooked up with a live journal, it’ll be that much more fun around here. Heaven knows we can use more humor and kindness in this joint. After Sandwiches, we shopped for a bit, walking aimlessly (the goal was to talk and have fun, not really to buy anything. (but I did buy a treatie for my sweetie… I love finding her trinkets of happiness in fun pre-cast plastic…I think she’ll dig it.) The first time I’ve been in sam goody in about 6 months… Nice to see dvd’s are affordable now, but sad that a crappy music cd (40 min, tops) was selling for $24… not an import, just super-inflated prices at the store, I think. Bah!

On another note, Derek’s smoking way too much. (I know my bro reads this…) Time to cut back to a pack a day or less, bub!

Anyhoo, I go to call a cab for the trip to the pier…(Because it’s frickin’ 1pm, July, Florida…. I don’t plan on walking 2 miles in the humid, thick, bright, hot death if I can drop a fiver to travel in air-conditioned comfort. you may call me spoiled, if you wish.) The cab arrives, and I swear the Russian guy was doing some sort of Yakov Smirnoff riff on us about his ex-wife, motorcycles, and child-rearing. Quite entertaining, and totally unexpected. We got to the pier, and were early (the folks we were going to meet weren’t due for an hour yet), so we nursed a carafe of coke and had a nice long talk about sundry things.. primarily his recent breakup, and playing dope wars on my palm pilot. He dug it a lot, so I e-mailed him a link to the windows version which has a lot more features and is a fun little time-blower.

I introduced him to some of the folks from work, and met with the pier band there, to give them a quote on doing some webby-stuff. (I gave ’em a good deal, as they’re buddies of Carman and Karen… plus, I can charge more later for upkeep and maint.) The work gang was sitting right up in front, and I couldn’t get that close, as it was too dang loud. Instead, Derek and I took a walk up and down the beach, then ducked into walgreens to cool off. I picked up a pair of cheap sunglasses, (blu-blockers!) and we went out front to the bus stop there to talk some more, and wait for the #11 to pick him up, and take him on home. After the bus went on its merry way to Los Olas, I felt an urge to hoof it (things had cooled to a reasonable degree by then) so I walked from the bus stop to the soda fountain nearby, and got a root beer float…. buoyed by vanilla ice cream and a sense of purpose, I headed for home…. I’ve not had a real float in a long time, so it was a nice treat to end a pleasant day… convenience in all things, I passed a trash can as I finished the last drop. πŸ™‚ Got home, and showered to

Arrived home, and now am anxiously awaiting my sweetie to pop online and tell me of her day out and about. I think I’ll plan supper, and goof with newtie in the meantime. Supper is – either delivery chinese, or something in the larder/icebox/cupboad.

I’m well-stocked, but I think I deserve a day to total pampering, and am considering orange tofu with broccoli. The jury’s still out. I’ll decide by 8… meantime, I’m going to kick back, cool my heels, and relax.

I’m bad.

I have 4 packages to send out.

They’ve been sitting by my front door “so I won’t forget them” since Friday night, to take to the post office last saturdayt morning.

Tonight, when I see them, I’m putting them *IN FRONT* of the door, in order to ship them off. to them that’s expecting mail, it should get to you by the weekend.

Ack. On to good stuff.

I talked to my brother last night, and hopefully we’ll be getting together this Sunday to go to the pier, listen to some music, see a few friends. Listen to a band that I’d like to do a website for. We’ll see.

My morning fog obscures all memory of last night’s dreams. I lay in bed this morning, waking slowly, thinking of being with my sweetie in a park, watching the folks go by, seeing children playing. There was horseback riding and a lot of people there, even though they were spread out quite a bit…Its times like that when I wonder what we’ll be like five years from now… a decade, even 30 years. Her with a head of silver, me with a horseshoe of grey, grown old together…maybe children of ours having children of thier own. What’ll the world look like when my age has doubled? The same, but only with more crap music and cool technology? (Sort of how I view the shift from the 80’s to now…) I like to think we’ll still have books, peace and freedom. I think we’re overdue for a global confilct… I hope we never have another, but is that a realistic hope? I’m getting too old to serve, but will my kids one day have to kill people that threaten our way of living?

I just want to grow old with the woman I love. πŸ™‚ A reasonable request, I think.

Help! Help! Here come the Bears!

In The Wonderland Zoo,
There are certain bears who,
Stay at home every night,
Never quarrel or fight,
Hey! We don’t even bite!

Hair BearBubi BearSquare BearHi!

Fodder for a new icon or three or four. It’s nearly 30 years later, and I’m still trying to figure out the invisible three-man (three bear) motorcycle.

the guys on the invisible bike

I talked to my brother last night, aroud 11pm, midnight…. they got a windows cd, but still have a defective sound card. next weekend I’ll bring one of the spares up and set him tright… he really want to play hellcab, and some of the other games. I know how annoying it can be to work with a hobbled machine. Note to self, send off mail for assorted mailfolks today. I have treats for a few people to drop at the post office.

Sakes, Monday again. Makes sense…the weekend was good, but didn’t seem too short. Well, best be off on my daily routine. Going walkies, then a nice shower before dressing for work. see you kids later on.

Day one of My sweetie being away.

It hasn’t sunk in completely yet. (I’m going to feel it especially hard tomorrow morning, though… our wake up chats, and gabbing through work is what gets me through the day. I miss her being online, but I’m thinking about her being on the road… I’m writing her a letter tonight after I finish my break.

Hooked up my brother’s machine with the Internet, and a few games, although he hasn’t got a sound card, so the fun factor is a lot lower than it might be. I’m going to see if I can find him a nice little sound blaster from the stockpile at work. He needed a few little other bits of hardware, a mouse, long phone cable, etc… Next time I head over there, I’ll get him an AIM account, and such… (he’s a slow typist, but the voice chat’ll be nice).

I left about 3ish, and got home… and promptly took a nice nap. (I only slept 4 hours last night.) I was rudely awakened by my landlord at 5pm… (I can’t blame him for that, who’s asleep at 5, usually?) Where he gave me nonsense about the front of my apartment. (I forgot to set out my trash last night, and his gf griped to him that my full can will be in front for another 3 days, before the following pickup. Oh, the humanity..[sarcasm].. Hey, I wasn’t the one baker acted for wielding a firearm in a homicidal/suicidal fun, and had to be baker acted for 3 days at the local pokey. I’ll welcome blowing this Pepsi stand.)

Since I was awake, I went to do my long overdue laundry… and dined alfresco at the next door Italian restaurant. They have a wickedly good eggplant parm sub, and they deliver. Somebody new to add to the menu! πŸ™‚ (They also have a buffet table set up, I might hit that next laundry day…lots of tasty pizza, pasta, salad and desserts. The key lime pie looked really good, but I abstained (This time…) Anyhoo, I watched the sun go down, and I imagined holding hands with my sweetheart…that brought me a great peace. I returned to the ‘mat, just in time to move the clothes to the dryer. I had my palmtop with me, so I read my copy of leaves of grass. Dang, Ol’ Walt knew his stuff.

Good Morning.

Hope all you kids are bright-eyed and bushy-tailed this morning too!

Saw My darling off for her week-long sabbatical. Man… this is going to be rough. I have a full-ish schedule today, to take my mind off of separation anxiety. We didn’t say goodbye, just “until Sunday!”. πŸ™‚

10- be at brothers, and show him how to use his new computer. (hook him up with net zero, and such, make sure all his poop hardware is in order.)

Not sure how long that’ll take… bringing him old software (it’s an old computer he’s got) Quake, Doom, rise of the Triad, Hellcab, drowned god, civ, age of empires, simcity classic, and a few other oldies but goodies.

I’m hoping that by the time I get back home, I’ll have heard back from the apartment regarding my acceptance, and moving in schedules. I have to transfer my phone over there, and get power set up… plus arrange for a uhaul truck to take all my stuff… not to mention pack all my gear. I really hope that everything comes together smoothly.

Other things to do in the works – Laundry!!!