Roanoke, Virginia

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today felt like:

a tired crab on a hot rock

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the day moved like this:

farmers market, bagels, small batch liquidations, missed delivery of palma 2 pro, i stayed home due to post-egg-belly-trouble

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i noticed:

• something small: river pebbles on the roanoke looking dry, but round
• something living: a tiny brown moth with white speckles, very pretty ! (royal walnut moth)
• something that felt out of place: sky seemed gray, clouds more blue

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the valley:

a lot of mist coming down the mountain, then riaing up again, like a cotton blanket being aired out

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animals / visitors:

skinny cat, junebugs, dragonflies, deer and inlaws

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something strange:

learned my local bagel joint uses beeg tallow in all fried items, no wonder i liked the taste, but as a vegetarian not ordering that stuff again. surprised i’m not angrier.

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i kept thinking about:

Recently heard folks with ADHD live about a decade less due to comorbidities like depression, anxiety, suicidal ideation, and sleep issues.

Add that to being a fairly clumsy, obese, left-handed giant, and I’m honestly surprised I am alive at all at this point.
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today’s weight:

feeling a bit of a gloomy gus. ready to be more of a chipper chuck.

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small good things:

• egg, cheese and hash brown on salt bagel (not so small, really)
• free pile of mini muffins when they had to recall us to put hash brown on our bagels
• trinket rade a little found plastic jesus for some cool bug stickers

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tonight:

“better than sex cake” and thai food was dandy, aus version of death in paradise was weaksauce. good to be with family though. 

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tomorrow might:

be a brighter day

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free write:

Not much today. Man-thing doodle